Six Months With You

July 12, 2018

Happy half birthday to my little love.

I dreamt of you long before I was able to meet you… I wondered what you would look like, what your personality would be like.. I wondered which ways you would be like daddy and which ways you would be like me.

I had some clues about you before you were born. I knew you would be strong and active, you told me by the way you seemed to never rest for very long in my tummy and the way my belly contorted into the weirdest shapes when you were stretching and moving around. I learned that you like to snuggle, since you decided to stay nestled in tight in my tummy until 2 weeks past your due date. I knew you would be happy… Daddy and I were so curious about you, we had a 3D ultrasound and saw you smile when I was 25 weeks pregnant… I didn’t even know babies that little could smile in their mommy’s tummy, but you did.

I have loved discovering more about you every day since you arrived six months ago. You are beautiful and bright, you are curious and captivating. You are spunky and spirited, you are silly, you are sweet, you are strong. You are more than we could have ever asked for and we can’t believe you are ours.

I am trying to cherish your littleness every day. I want to remember the way it feels when you snuggle into me, the way you smile when I sing “What a Wonderful World”, the way you look at me when I’m pushing you in your stroller, and the way you smile at me proudly when you learn something new. There have been some tears from mama in the last week. I cried when you were showing me how you could sit up for so long without help (I know, this seems silly to cry about, but the way you looked at me, I could tell you wanted me to be proud of you… I am..), I cried when we put you to sleep last night in your crib in your own room instead of the bassinet in mommy and daddy’s room, and I cried because I knew you were ready and I wasn’t. And I have tears writing this now because I am just so darn happy that you are here…

I remember going past my due date with you. Two weeks to be exact. There are so many things in life we have no control over and this was one of them. I tried to stay positive and but I was scared… Just over a year before your due date, I found out about our miscarriage. We wanted a baby so bad but at the time, it wasn’t meant to be. Because of this, I spent most of my pregnancy irrationally worrying that I wouldn’t get to meet you. It wouldn’t feel real until you were there in my arms. So 6 months ago, 40 hours after being induced, and after 2 long hours of pushing, you arrived. You were here in my arms, alert and observant, with 10 perfect fingers and toes, with daddy right by my side, and I bawled tears of relief and happiness and it was the BEST moment of my entire life.

To say I love you, Mila, is the greatest understatement.

Here is a 6 minute video to celebrate the last 6 months with you. ♥️




On Pregnancy and Our Babymoon

I have so much respect for all of the mamas out there. I have been very lucky so far with a smooth pregnancy, but pregnancy is no cakewalk no matter what these pictures may look like. All of the emotional and physical changes that happen whether or not you’re ready for them are things I don’t think I could’ve ever prepared for.

You will feel aches and pains that you’ve never felt before. You will be so tired but your sleep will be restless. Your body will do weird things. And pregnancy is just the beginning of what motherhood will really be like. I think all the harder stuff comes after pregnancy: labour, delivery, and the sleepless  days and nights of raising a newborn along with the fear of the unknown. Am I doing this right? Am I too much? Am I not enough?

Being pregnant, you already start to feel like your body is no longer your own. When you eat, you’re mindful of whether or not the baby is getting enough of what they need. You already begin to feel motherly guilt when you do the things people tell you you shouldn’t. But your body also suddenly becomes a free-for-all for people to look (or stare) at and for people to comment on. Some will tell you how big you look, others will tell you how great or small you look. I’ve been asked, “Are you having twins?” and “Are you pregnant or are you just fat?”. All the meanwhile, you smile and laugh. No one likes an angry pregnant lady.  But you know what? I know people don’t mean any harm by it. People are just curious and pregnant women, in general, are just very cute. But in the comfort of your home, with your partner, they know how you really feel about all of the changes you’re going through and they know the fear you have that you’re losing yourself and that you may never be the same again.

But with all that being said, I can’t help but think about how amazing it is for women to have bodies that can create a life inside of us. So my body may never be the same again but I am thankful for the miracle happening inside of me. I will always cherish the moments when I can take her with me wherever I go. And I can’t speak for the next steps, because technically I’m in the honeymoon stage of pregnancy, but I’m fairly certain I will miss these times of being pregnant. For that reason,  I wanted to capture as many memories as possible and to spend as many of these moments where it’s just Matt and I, enjoying our time together and working on making us better and stronger, so that we can be the best parents we possibly can be.


Our babymoon was more than we could have ever asked for. It was exhausting at points.. running through airports to catch connections, and sleeping on the floor of airports when those connections had been missed.

There were tears from me, about things I probably shouldn’t have cried over (thanks hormones). I remember sitting at a beautiful beachfront cafe silently with tears rolling down my cheeks and Matt having no idea what was happening. The trigger for those tears? It was a lot of things.. probably the exhaustion kicking in, the frustration I felt over the waitress telling me they couldn’t make me a hot chocolate after I realized that was one of the few beverages on the menu I was allowed to have. It was all of the things on the menu I saw that I knew I couldn’t have, including enjoying the view with a glass of vino with Matt. And it was our first vacation where I suddenly felt all my limitations. I couldn’t do all the adventurous things we normally do on vacation. I had to protect our little peanut. I let the tears work themselves out of my system. And then I sucked it up and remembered how lucky I am to have this little peanut inside of me.

We had a wonderful time enjoying Monaco, Eze, and Nice even if it was at a slower pace than we were used to. And boy, is Monaco pricey! There were many times when we opted to share an item on the menu because we were both outraged and terrified about the price tag of our meal items. But the French Riviera is absolutely STUNNING and we had beautiful weather while were there and took memories with us that we won’t forget.

And now, the peak and pit of our trips:

Matt’s: Pit: The silly argument we had that then made us skip dinner and a night out on the town because we were too angry with each other.

Matt’s Peak: Celebrating his 33rd birthday in the exact way we loves to spend his days, with fun activities like volleyball, bowling, playing pool, and finishing the night dining at Blue Bay, an amazing restaurant (where we forced ourself to not look at the price of everything.. because when you commit to going to a Michelin star restaurant, you just can’t.)

My Pit: Finding a maggot at the bottom of my mushroom risotto in Eze after I had basically finished eating the entire thing. My stomach still turns just thinking about it.

My Peak: All of the laughs I had on this trip with Matt… like laughing so hard you feel like Santa Claus-with-your-belly-shaking-like-a-bowl-full-of-jelly laughing. Ok.. Maybe that’s happening because of the pregnant belly. 😛 But I still loved it.

Until next time!






On Living Abroad 

It’s been 2 years and 3 months since I’ve lived in Vancouver now. It is an amazing place to live and I am so lucky to live here, but it’s probably taken me about this long to really feel like I could call this place my home. Ever since I was about 16 years old, I knew I wanted to move away for college and part of me didn’t think I would ever move back home after.

I originally wanted to move to NYC for undergrad, but chickened out when application time came. I ended up starting my adult life in San Diego, and when I was 22 I moved off to NYC for graduate school, following my dream. Shortly before moving to NYC, I found my soulmate, and he would end up taking me on a path I had never foreseen, a wonderful and exciting one. And after 4 years in NYC, I ended up here in beautiful BC, the place he was lucky enough to have called home his whole life. Some of my patients ask me why a girl from Southern California is living up here, as if it seems crazy… and I have to convince them how beautiful it is here and how great of a place it is to live. Sometimes I wonder if I’m trying to convince them or myself.

But I truly do love it here. Up here, the air is clean, nature is lush, the skies are bluer, and I am constantly in awe of the natural beauty surrounding me. The city is vibrant, people are active and healthy, and there are dogs everywhere (I LOVE that part)!

What’s made it so hard for me to call this place home isn’t the lack of beauty or endless amount of things to do… What truly makes a place home, is that feeling of comfort that you get when you’re with those who make you feel safe, understood, welcome, and for lack of a better word, loved. To me, what I just described is the true meaning of family. And for me, family can extend beyond blood relatives.

I have met some pretty incredible people here and am lucky to have been taken in and accepted so quickly by Matt’s family. It is only now, 2 years and 3 months later, that I can look back and realize it’s been a while since I’ve cried thinking of how much I miss my family or friends that I left in Chino Hills, San Diego, or New York and how hard it is to “make a family” out here.

But today, I cried again. My mom and dad are visiting Vancouver and I got to see videos my mom had taken of my 10 week old nephew (who lives in San Francisco) who I’ve been lucky enough to have seen TWICE before he was 7 weeks old. I watched at least a dozen short videos of him cooing, smiling, or even just laying there observing his surroundings. Matt reminded me we had to get going so I could prepare for my next day at work but all I wanted to do was sit there and watch those videos… because I realized those videos would be the closest I would get to holding, touching, smelling, or kissing my baby nephew and I don’t want him to grow up and miss it all. I told Matt after we left my parent’s hotel how that felt and I just started crying. This time I let myself cry, and didn’t feel ashamed or try to stop myself from thinking that I should be over it by now.

I realized it makes me human to feel this way, and although living abroad seems amazing and adventurous, sometimes it hurts. So my message to myself after all of this is to cherish each moment with those you love because when we leave this earth, all people will have of us is the memories we made with them.



How To Get The “No Makeup” Makeup Look 

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I’m feeling a little under the weather today. I haven’t been sick in such a long time (thank you immune system!), but finally I’ve come down with a bit of a bug. I luckily had the day off of work but felt like being snuggled under the covers all day. I had to leave the house to run some errands and go to the pharmacy but didn’t want to leave the house completely bare-faced because if I’m really tired, my under-eye circles could probably scare the boogie man! (And by the way, this look may not be for everyone because if you’re one of those girls that can leave the house without any makeup on looking downright flawless, I envy you, girl!). Since I just couldn’t be bothered to put on a full face of makeup I headed for my go-to “No Makeup” Makeup Look! I figured today would be a great time to share the products I use to achieve this look!


This look is great for when you want to get ready in less than 5 minutes and still look presentable. This is my go to look for a day of running errands or if you like to keep it low key, it’s a great easy everyday makeup look. I’ve worn these products camping (okay, glamping :P), heading to the beach, on lazy Sundays, running errands, whenever I’m in a rush, or for a fresh faced youthful look!


Alright, let’s get started!


1. Moisturize. I have been loving Origins Vitazing moisturizer with SPF 15. When you first dispense the product it looks white with almost a grainy look to it, but as soon as you start blending it in, it starts to develop a little bit of a color. It almost acts as a very light coverage tinted moisturizer. I would be careful if you have oily skin. Since I have normal/dry skin, this product works great for me.
The Origins Ginzing under eye cream has been great for daytime use. It has almost a sheen to it and this works for me since my under-eye area can get very dry and crepe-y. It’s supposed to reduce puffiness as well, and I’m not sure I can attest to that, but it does the job of moisturizing the under eye area.


2. Conceal. Spot conceal any dark spots, acne scars, or problem areas you have. Many of us have redness around the nose, so that’s a good area to dab a little concealer if you’re not planning on wearing any liquid foundation. I have been absolutely loving the Urban Decay Naked Concealer. It’s creamy, pigmented, does not settle into my fine lines, and the applicator makes it very easy to work with. Not all concealers can be used for both the face and under eye area, but this one definitely can.


If you’re dealing with any blemishes, I love the CoverFx Blemish Treatment Concealer. It has 1% salicylic acid in it to treat blemishes while concealing. It blends like a dream and has great coverage for those spots.
Don’t forget to blend, blend, blend! I just use my fingers to gently dab in and blend the concealer.


3. Set. This Hello Flawless Powder by Benefit is AMAZING. I have been using it for years now to set my foundation or even for a little extra coverage on lighter makeup days like this. It has a natural satin finish which isn’t too dry or powdery on my dry skin. It literally does make your skin look flawless and the powder is so smooth and finely milled. I recommend using a big round fluffy brush to apply.


4. Brighten. A good blush can really wake up your face and bring it back to life. I have been using the Becca Mineral Blush in Flowerchild, which is a peachy pink blush with golden highlights. Dust your blush of choice onto the apples of your cheek and slightly upward in a straight line up to your ear. This will make your cheekbones pop.


5. Shape and Set. Use light strokes to fill in your brows with a brow pencil or for a more natural look, you can use an eyebrow powder or matte eye shadow with an angled brush to fill in your brows. A good rule of thumb for those of us with dark hair is to choose a color a couple shades lighter than your hair to give the most natural effect. And for those who have blonde hair, go a couple shades darker.
An optional step is to set your brows with a brow gel/mascara to keep them in place. I have been using the L’oreal Brow Stylist Plumper Brow Gel Mascara in the color Light/Medium. It also comes in the shades Transparent and Medium/Dark. Since I’ve lightened my hair with my ombre/balayage highlights, I’ve actually been liking using the light medium color because it gives my brows an overall lighter appearance.


6. Accentuate. Curl those lashes and put on a couple coats of mascara to really bring out your lashes and wake up your eyes. Since I have straight Asian lashes, 99% of the time, you’ll find me using waterproof mascara since it tends to hold my curl much better. I was recommended to try the Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara by my girlfriend Josephine and I have been loving it. Thanks Jo!


Sometimes, if I have even less than 5 minutes, I’ll only use steps 1, 2, and 6 before I head out the door.


Thanks for reading and let me know if you have any recommendations or what you like to use for your “No Makeup” Makeup Looks!



Summer Sunday Feels

I LOVE Sundays. To me, Sundays were made for sleeping in, lounging, recharging, but also enjoying some Sunday Funday time! We had a family birthday party to go to this past weekend and I had the Sunday feels. I had no idea what I wanted to wear when I walked into my closet, but I knew that I didn’t want to have to think too much about it. And to my, and hubby’s surprise, I left the house in the first outfit and pair of shoes I put on… I know, shocker! 😉

The trick to that relaxed and effortless Sunday look that you can also feel fab enough to go to brunch in is having the right key pieces.

Here are a few tips on using pieces from your closet to create your summer sunday look:

  1. An effortless one piece outfit. I chose this polka dot H&M piece out of my closet because all I needed to do was literally throw it on and tie a bow. Done! Other pieces that would work well would be rompers/jumpsuits, a maxi dress, or a sheath dress.
  2. A pair of shoes you can “slip” into. I am a BIG fan of slip on shoes, mostly because I love the feeling of my feet being free. It must be the California girl in me that grew up in flippy floppies pretty much 365 days of the year. So when I discovered these mules I thought to myself, “slip on shoes that come in heel form?!” That was a no brainer for me!
  3. Statement accessory. I felt a hat worked best to pull this look together. Find whatever works for your outfit/mood/style to tie everything in.



Forever 21 Hat | H&M Dress | Forever 21 Heels

I hope you’re having a wonderful Sunday! Thanks for reading!



Rainy Day Essentials

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Living in Vancouver, you definitely learn to appreciate two things. The first is: sunshine, because when it’s sunny here, it’s BE-AU-TIFUL. And the second thing is a great rain jacket.

Here are the essentials that get me through those rainy days:

1. A Solid Rain Jacket. For a city that rains so much, you don’t see THAT many umbrellas. And I am all for this, because I am not the biggest fan of umbrellas. After living in NYC, I developed a secret fear of getting my eyes poked out by one of those unnecessarily pointed tips. Plus, why do umbrellas have to take up so much room?? 😉 I would much prefer a light rain jacket with a hood. I love this jacket because it has a feminine cinch at the waist, nice zipper detailing, and best of all there’s a little hood that can be zipped away.

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2. A Pair of “Are those rain boots?” Rain Boots.  I love a cute pair of rain boots that have fun funky designs… but the forecast isn’t always accurate and sometimes that rainy day turns into a beautiful sunny day, which is exactly what happened the day these photos were taken. And when that happens, it’s good to be wearing a versatile boot.

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3. Hair Texturizing Spray. There’s nothing that can ruin a good hair day like humidity and rain. When this happens, I like to spray my favorite sea salt spray into my hair and give it a scrunch to give my hair some texture and dimension. That way, I turn my frizz into something more manageable. My favorite texturizing spray since cutting my hair short is the Not Your Mother’s Beach Babe Texturizing Sea Salt Spray infused with Dead Sea Salt & Sea Kelp. It can be found at Target and Ulta in the U.S. but I haven’t found it in Canada yet.

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4. My Best Fur-iend. Okay, Toby, our little Corgi is pretty much an every day essential. The handsome little fellow even has his own rain jacket. It’s pretty much normal to see dogs in rain jackets in Vancouver. 🙂

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Zara Jacket | Garage Top | H&M Scarf (similar here) | Grey Skinny Jeans (similar here) | H&M necklace (similar here) | Brown’s B2 Rain Boot (similar styles here)

Thanks for reading!



Cabo Dreams

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Wanderlust is real. I’m a couple days past Earth day now, but I think it’s safe to say that Mother Earth wouldn’t mind us celebrating her every day. We live on such a beautiful planet and I want to be able to see as much of it as possible. The sun was meant to be felt, the water to be splashed, the sand to be squished between your toes. 

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There is a quote about travel that is just  perfect. 

“Travel is like love, mostly because it’s a heightened state of awareness, in which we are mindful, receptive, undimmed by familiarity and ready to be transformed. That is why the best trips, like the best love affairs, never really end.”

 -Pico Iyer

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When I travel to a new place, there are three things that I feel I must do for the trip to feel complete. 

1. Relax. Isn’t that the reason that we call it a vacation after all? I spent most of March working my little bootay off. I worked 6 days a week for weeks, sometimes working 11 hour days with close to an hour commute each way. Needless to say, by the time the end of March rolled around, I was exhausted and in much need of a vacation. And also, sometimes you just need to get away!

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2. Adventure. What better way to see a place than to jump right in? Although I don’t consider myself particularly coordinated or gifted when it comes to sports, I do like adventure! We stayed at the Hacienda Encantada resort and were lucky enough to arrive at the resort just before the last horseback riding tour for the week left! There is something that makes you feel so in touch with nature when you are riding a horse.  

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3. Seeing the culture. The REAL stuff. I love seeing the native foods. Okay, well also smelling and tasting the native foods ;). I love observing the customs of different cultures, the way people in different places interact with each other, and the experiencing the local flavor. People watching is the best when you’re on vacation. I love to see all the intertwinings of what makes a place special. It’s like watching the inner gears of a watch. They all seem to be moving independently of each other but when you look at the big picture, it’s all working together so beautifully in perfect synchrony. 

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I can’t wait ’til the next adventure!